oh, renoir

nocturne communique/nocturnal e-mission
i am speaking to yr empty chair

textual relations/e-ruptions
the girl who would (loved to) always point out when you were playing with yr hair, twirling curls around fingers. she let everyone know it was cuz you were shy or nervous or embarrassed or ready to go. but somehow it makes sense to do such things after so many early mornings spent alone on sidewalks and in streets and not only jus cuz you feel like it, but alone cuz no one else does, cuz they're all sleeping it off and you were too uncomfortable and excited to get that far. but mostly cuz you love the only sound being the syncopation of rain and footsteps.

show me a ladder to the sun, on that ladder be a rung, lie down and let me walk across you. to think about this in other terms other, these mirrors are everywhere. efface the beauty of youth, the youth of beauty, and flash a golden flower.

i will whip you with a bough of pine until you taste like mango. the slap marks red and a slow careening of the neck, emitting a smile that spreads like molasses cross yr cheek.

i am thinking now about about the boy who has been standing in my backyard. it is snowing. he is wearing blue warm. but his face is exposed. the wind and the snow and his white face. there is a mark on his bottom lip from when he sucks it in his mouth and bites it. two chapped squares. and blood in between. where i wanna put my tongue.

now it's summer. and we're never inside. always leaving. to bare legs and chests on humid streets. and lower white shorts over sweaty hard-ons against brick walls.

sometimes there is sense and peace
like a weightless cloud of white doves

sometimes it is like the ocean
and the black sand
free
overwhelming in its vastness

you come to me
like a forlorn dog

i come on yr face
a veil and you are reborn

LOOK!
luis alvarez - in dreams
asus - bamboo laptop
cadallaca - yr one wish
cocorosie - werewolf
drag show video verite
peter hobbs
daniel libeskind - 1 madison ave.
ninaboy
frank o'hara - having a coke w/you
p.i.x zine
r.e.m. - driver 8
surfing for seniors
anna ternheim - what have i done
thunderant - feminist bookstore ep. 2
zeen

LISTEN!
a camp
american analog set - thin fingers
cure - all cats are grey
el perro del mar - auld lang syne
fan death
french miami
giant drag
ipso facto
logh
of montreal - at night trees aren't sleeping
pains of being pure @ heart
portrait painters
sads
ulrich schnauss - goodbye
s.c.u.m
swedish x-mas mix