oh, renoir

i may not have money
but i can still have somebody

i was young when i held a gun

and i can still feel the kickback

meditative act of rolling a cigarette
everything in a bag covered in shattered glass

the debasement of religiosity: how the religious applies to the drag household and to the elevation of the male body

what i meant was i wanted it to be like an abstract record, recorded in a language different than that we use with each other. i think that when you write something down it gets fixed and memorialized in a way that is independent from the way two people interact with each other in person. i think this is why one typically writes to another in recognition of a special occasion or in the absence of presence. so, yes, i have been fixing things along the way. and, yes, there’s a double meaning there.

nocturnes:

sinking boys

barked at

by shark-blue ocean

move

with the ease

of well-oiled wheels

propelled,

compelled by

dumb autumn smells

leaves the colour

of levi's tags

sorrow boys

with those

breath reflexes leaping and

lovely for seconds only

channel, conduit, flowing through for

on the one hand i provide the framework, the example,

and on the other, it's so alien

pattern atop pattern

otherwise how could one cover be better than another?

guitar solo in front of a flowered shirt

or flowered bedspread on which you

sit cross-legged in jeans and a t-shirt

quoting bob dylan lyrics

soft color features

fake eyelashes

the silence commanded by

the troubador

if you hit me, i'll disappear into the woodwork

looking at:
boy admits raping nine-year-old
georgi djongarski - st sebastian hors d'oeuvre plate
from beginning to end
gender pay gap in city shocking
mi and l'au - bingo
paul morris - no limits: necessary danger in male porn
hedi slimane - american youth
taxi taxi! - still standing at yr back door
chris von steiner

listening to:
karl blau - dark sedan
little dragon
supercluster
thee fair ohs
toro y moi