oh, renoir

nocturne communique/nocturnal e-mission
word that means so much. word that is so revelatory. jail vs blood. myths of sense, correction, straight lines. the lesson of the line vs osmosis, circularity, permeability. some good. some bad. some good in small doses. so this is what i'm doing: making a corral. kind of like if to contain were to hug and everyone's his own gatekeeper.

textual relations/e-ruptions
makeshift bed. the floor and mismatched linen. brown sleeping bag as blanket and blue pillow. move the coffee table outta the way and you fit between it and the sofa. the furniture. clean and adult. the morning. warm. shafts come in through the window. more decorative than effective. and hit the side of yr face. eye closest to the pillow open. line from notebooks to shoes to he on the couch. the kitchen cum kinetic.

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all those nights

in the rain

nothing to say

all those nights spent

waiting

worrying

the opposite of anticipation

if i could have one superpower

it would be

grace

in dreams (june)
you want to live alone on mt josef where the sailboats are.

you are singing x-mas carols on tv. eye make-up a red line round yr forehead.

don't live on 27th st. live on 27th floor. take a horizontal and vertical elevator to get there.

meet dyke who's working as teller in bank (or maybe it's a post office, it's in new york, it's in tribeca). i've met her in lines twice before. she doesn't know i have a boyfriend, keeps asking me about gals. run into r. she's on vacation. some program in cleveland hasn't started yet, otherwise she'd be there. my friends and her daughter will convene/converge in marshall, mi, only she wants a whole room to herself.

the bows of ships. i'm in them and they're made of glass. only i'm not protected so much as trapped as they plunge into water and it feels like rollercoaster.

looking at:
bruce high quality foundation - pizzatopia
fine young cannibals - i'm not the man i used to be
zach galifianakis interviews indie rocker michael showalter
jef geys - belgian pavilion at venice art biennale 09
gossip - heavy cross
hint of planet outside our galaxy
bell hooks - the will to change: men, masculinity, and love
in the studio w/courtney love . . . and hole!
rhea jeong - void lp player
jr
adam kimmel - screentest
jana leo - rape new york: an open archive
ute ploier
roman polanski: wanted and desired
tools are temporary body parts
transmission w/t-mobile interview w/yoko, ana, and beth

listening to:
jeff buckley - we all fall in love sometimes
husbands
makthaverskan
salem - streets of philadelphia
she & him - please, please, please let me get what i want
patti smith - live at the wbai studio, new york city, may 28, 1975
matthew stone - why the future is still possible
yo majesty